Sunday, July 13 @ 14:57
Kinwai. Can you be here for me now? I need you now more than ever.
Saturday, July 12 @ 14:29
I was merely concerned.
Friday, July 11 @ 00:21
Oh gosh. Stop it Syuha.
Friday, July 4 @ 14:34
It was supposed to be the day of a great love story ever written.
Monday, June 23 @ 09:35
It's alright. Learn to let go.
@ 00:28
What do I do? My heart hurts so bad.
@ 00:23
):
Sunday, June 22 @ 16:49
How terrible I must have been looked at, at one point of view. For not letting someone do things for a good intention. Not being understanding and empathize with things that happened and happening. Am I really that evil in your eyes? Tears.
Sunday, June 8 @ 12:52
You.
Tuesday, June 3 @ 20:55
I hate it when I close my eyes and cry, and open my eyes and realise that no one is here for me.
Wednesday, May 14 @ 22:13
Baby, how can I not feel that I love you more than you do?
Monday, April 21 @ 23:28
When I look back at pictures of us together, I feel stronger. I feel that we will make it till the end. I feel like no matter how many situations might bring us down, we'll go thru thick and thin together and I love you so fucking much. Just so adorably 502774839276 times fucking much.
Yearning
Friday, April 18 @ 11:47
I've been constantly thinking about you. For the time that we've been thru. I really, really love you a lot. Can't wait to see you later. Really do.
xoxo
Saturday, April 12 @ 23:30
This is fucking killing me.
@ 19:58
Today, I felt like I was with someone I once knew. How you said let's see how. And how I felt that I was trying my best but whatever I did just didn't go right. But a very well done job Syuha. I'm so proud of you for pretending you're strong. But come on, I know you can do better than this. Just do things right for once can you?
Love without a doubt
Saturday, April 5 @ 11:00
It's funny how I looked at you and all the unseen memories just ride past my mind. We used to be strangers, then we became acquaintance and slowly, we were friends. And it's funny how we were always in each other's life, like scenes from How I Met Your Mother, we kept crossing each others' lives but we both didn't know each existence. But I love it. I love how we can turn nothing, to something so tender and amazing. I wished I had known the real you sooner, cause I'll go head over heels for you if I do. No matter how much we argued, how much we agree to disagree, one thing that I know for sure, is that I'm really, really really is crazy over you. And when you did that expression that I loved a lot, I swear, I died. Every single time. I really love you a lot. Please never doubt my love for you. Please.
If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.
Sunday, March 30 @ 10:16
I still love you as much as I did before. If not even more.
Sunday, March 16 @ 11:30
How else should I tell you how much you mean to me? How much I love you? And how crazy I am for you. It's that much. So much.
Perfect Imperfection.
Monday, March 10 @ 00:01
Recalling our past memories together just makes me smile. Like how we first met each other (for real) and started hanging out. When you began having feelings for me. When I kinda get to know how you felt about me. How slowly it became a mutual feeling. I can never ever forget that. I've grown to love you much more now that I know you inside out. Your perfect imperfection. I love everything about you.
Monday, February 24 @ 10:56
It's the best whenever I'm with you. With a nice morning to have your face to wake up to. With the hilarious bus ride back home. Or to even cry just thinking about how much you mean to me. I love you. I love you so much.
Already missing you.
Hi, I'm such an asshole.
Tuesday, February 18 @ 22:31
This is as worse as it can get. I'm so fucking dehydrated having to let out tears countless times in a day. And I just realised that I could make someone hurt as much as people can hurt me. It's just so terrible how I can love you so much and yet hurt you at the same time. A mere thought of making things clear turns to a dust of self-hate and discrimination. Why would I do that? Why didn't I think that I could hurt you even by the smallest thing that prolly be the easiest to avoid. You saying how much it breaks your heart just shattered mine into tiny small pieces that evaporated to the air. I wouldn't even dare to hurt you, what more break your heart. I've never felt like a useless prick all my life towards someone I love so dearly. Until today. What an ass I can be. What an ass am I to do that to you without giving a thorough thought. What an asshole. I feel super terrible that I cannot even think straight and the replies you gave are so vague that it's hard to think that you have forgave me for my mistake. Is this karma for my past selfishness? I fucking can't think straight and I fucking need a slap on the face and say, yes I'm never gonna be good enough. Ever.
Sunday, February 16 @ 17:26
I love you kinwai, I really do.
Saturday, February 15 @ 15:45
Do you know I always feel I'm not good enough for you? When thoughts come by and happy things are on, it's cause I'm trying hard, very hard to be someone you can and willing to adore. Though crankiness is inevitable, I'm doing my best to not show you this side of me. Going away everytime I feel that, it's much more selfish to hope you come running to me. Very selfish.
Really, I'm not that great.
Thursday, January 30 @ 19:57
Why would I tell you your weakness if I'm not perfect myself?
Negligence and love.
@ 01:28
I really wanna know but will I be ready to accept the fact? Or will I go live a life with love full of denials? Yes, so don't try to know.
Tuesday, January 28 @ 01:21
We have got to remind ourselves:
Everything is okay and everything will be okay.
Saturday, January 25 @ 23:56
I kinda need someone to talk to. So bad.
Take control.
@ 23:29
I need a breath of fresh air where no one will be there to judge me, be worried or make me worry, and just be content of the present. We are unhappy because we think so much about what other people think about us and we should stop doing that. Stop letting the minority bother us so much and do things that make us happy. Not stupid happy, but the sincere joy. Go out, have a picnic, explore parts of the world without the hustle and bustle of the city (if you search hard, Singapore has places that acquire serenity). I admit, I've been pressurized about what's gonna happen ahead of me, the future. But is it worth it to be all choked up just to think about this small little problem that might (hopefully) not matter in the future? What happened yesterday, today or what's going to happen tomorrow, all lies within God Almighty but the slight glimpse of hope, the light. You take control of it. So what kind of life do you wanna lead?
End.
Something worth the read:
The head of a company survived 9/11 because
His son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn’t go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.
One of them
Missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.
One’s
Car wouldn’t start.
One couldn’t
Get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work but before.
He got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..
Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone…
All the little things that annoy me,
I think to myself,
This is exactly where
I’m meant to be
At this very moment
Nothing but the truth.
Thursday, January 23 @ 00:22
I don't wanna tell you I miss you so much. I don't wanna tell you I need you every second of the time I'm not around you. I don't wanna tell you I'll do anything for you even if it means I'm gonna hurt myself. I don't wanna tell you I love you more than I love myself. I don't wanna tell you that if there's one person I want to be with for the rest of my life, it's you. I don't wanna tell you all of this cause it's true. All so darn true.
Tuesday, January 14 @ 16:52
Oh dear. Oh how much I love you.
How do I love you?
Saturday, January 11 @ 11:54
Why do I love you?
Why do I love, you?
The way you look at me when you miss me.
When you hold my hand oh so tightly.
Hugging me, sniffing every part of me.
Look, oh what a straight old tree.
Making me laugh like crazy every single day.
Call me randomly, not knowing what to say.
When you make me mad and you wanted to apologize.
Should have seen yourself, that sincere look in your eyes.
Why do you love me, you say.
Your actions, your words, things you do, your own way.
Don't ask me why, why I love you.
There's a million of them, you've got no clue.
Spending an hour or two, night or dawn.
When you said you like to see the way I frown.
You spoke the words to describe the terrible you.
No my dear, don't say that, I'm just having a terrible flu.
John said I'm always sick. Love sick.
Guess what rhymes that, you know, so be it.
There's a lot of reason why I love you so dearly.
So baby please, don't treat me coldly.
You asked if I wanted a Santa.
I thought no, it wouldn't matter.
I don't want a better you, a richer you, or the cool you.
I want you as who you are, real true.
I'm loving what we had, would never exchange it for anything.
Baby oh my kinwai baby, love.
You're my everything.
Friday, January 10 @ 20:34
Millions of emotion running through my mind
It's not something I need
It's not something the sickly me need
Not right now, definitely.
Please.
@ 15:44
When I'm with you I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you
Haiku #02
Wednesday, January 8 @ 01:41
Sky is midnight blackI miss you
Time should be 25 hours
There is nothing I can do
Hello dear,
Sunday, January 5 @ 23:26
Let this be a platform for sending all my love letters to you.
xoxo
Reflection
Thursday, December 26 @ 13:45
